This is another chapter in my life that is approaching its end, well, at least in this area. I have obtained my Master of Science of Psychology. This is yet another defining moment in my life. Who would ever thought that someone like me would have come so far, especially being in prison for 20 years, after serving a 15 to life sentence.
This is to show all those individuals who think life may be over after serving time in prison. Really, if you look at, after being released, life is just beginning all over again. This is based on whether or not if you begin as such. You can rebuild your life to whatever your dreams may be. No one can hold you back except “YOU” yourself. We are our own worst enemy. You can do anything you want to do “if your mind can conceive if and your heart can believe it, you can achieve it” (author unknown).
Sam Ford, MSP
If there are any ex-offenders who run across my website I welcome any response telling of your experience and how you have change your life.
Hello to all of my followers. I know I have not been on my site for a minute, however, I still taking care of my business. I have enrolled in grad school now, going for my MSP, masters in psychology. So I have been busy with yet another goal in my life since being released from prison, after doing 20 years. I have now been out for almost 11 years. I am still focused, with my mind as strong as ever. Now, I am waiting to hear from you!
Sam R Ford
Unless I abide by the terms of my conditions of worth, I cannot look upon myself in a positive manner.
Individuals who have come to this conclusion must begin to avoid certain behaviors and attitudes, regardless of how satisfying they might otherwise be. —-therefore, they can no longer function in full freedom. They must judge and weigh their behaviors closely, and so, they are prevented from fully developing or actualizing themselves, because certain behaviors can no longer be expressed.—-In a sense, I inhibit my own development by having to live within the confines of my conditions of worth.
With this in mind, I have trapped myself to my own conditions of worth. I restrain my own development by having to live within the confines of my own conditions of worth. We must excel to a higher standard of excellence!
Sam R Ford BSW
The men in our society have lost their God-given position. We have truly fallen from the grace that was given to us as a man. When the head is lost and confused-the head being the MAN! then our families are lost and confused and then our society becomes lost and confused as well. I believe that this is one of the reasons why our young men of today have ended up the way they are now, because there is not many strong MEN today. Babies having babies! How can they be a strong head of household when they were not taught and shown what it really means to be a true father or the Head/Provider!
How can we as a society begin to redeem ourselves as Men and Heads of household? One thing is for sure, our Thinking has to change! If we can’t change the way we think as a man, then we can’t change the course of our young men today. We need more strong fathers to get involved in our communities and with patience and perseverance, and teach our young men what it means to be a Father. Those of us who has gone through the vicissitudes of life are the ones who must take that stand and be willing to teach our young men how and what it really means to be a Father. Being a man is one who accepts all the responsibilities and the challenges of life. Not one who blames everything and everyone for their misfortunes and hard times or struggles.
As a man, you must be willing to listen attentively and apply the skills and knowledge that is being taught to you from someone who has gone through the same problems and setbacks.
We must change our belief system. Our belief system is the main thing that has gotten us all messed up now. But then, that’s all we have is our belief system, which is comfortable and easy. But if we look at it, where has our belief system gotten us? No where! but stuck blaming others for our misfortunes.
So, let’s start by changing the way we think and then we can begin to change that old faulty messed up thinking into positive thinking. Let us begin to set some realistic goals and develop those goals into a plan and put that plan in motion. Let’s do it!!!!
Sam R Ford BSW
This is a group where we come together and discuss our thoughts and feelings.
We will engage is a whole new [journey]-well, I’ll use the word migration, migration because when on a journey, you return to where you started and by migrating, you leave from where you were and begin with a new beginning. This new beginning may seem weird or strange to you. You will have thoughts like, “man, this is not me” or “my dudes will think I have become soft”. Even the negative energy that promote these kinds of thoughts will be more intensified. Why? Because, the negative energy does not agree with the positive energy that you have tapped into now.
However, each individual must by all means be totally honest with themselves. We know the whole truth about ourselves. We must not wear that mask any longer. The mask that we hide behind. The one that puts up that front in public.
It’s been too long now, WE-as X Offenders- have been chasing a dream that will just not happen because we have been going about it the wrong way. No wonder we always end up at the same spot, because we keep trying to reach new goals and dreams with the same old way of thinking.
WE must change our way of thinking. Thoughts create behavior, not behavior creates thoughts. This is the beginning of change! If you have joined this group, then you have taken the first step to a New Way of Thinking.
You should begin to keep a journal on your thoughts and feelings. You must be true to this new way of thinking or change will occur and become defeated as in the past. If your mind can conceive it, and your heart can believe it, then YOU can achieve IT!
Sam R. Ford/GenerationX
The Man and the Mask
September 24, 1990
I admit that I am the man with the mask. I wear it every day, until the lights go out. Then I feel safe in taking off my mask and being myself, with myself.
I bury my head in my pillow and brace myself for the flashbacks of my memories. My tears are silent, but the pain burns deep in my heart, placing the memories deep and deeper into my soul.
In the daytime when I use the phone or receive a letter from a loved one, it reflects the pain I feel. I sit down to write, since I can’t share my feelings with anyone or allow them to know how I am actually feeling sad and hurt and lonely.
It doesn’t matter because I am always prepared with my mask of happiness or my mask of portraying that I’m all right. It is very easy to hide behind my mask, but the pain it costs to wear it, is overwhelming.
I am the man-and-my emotions are the mask.
I wrote this during my time in prison….
Sam R. Ford BSW